* Friday, September 29

this is such a random post.
because i have nothing to talk abt.
well,
i think nessa owes me a date.
and so does that horny guy.
and porky.
and MEL.
and nana.
and shermaine.
GOSH.
many pple.
hahahaha.

and i think there are many many MANY pple's
birthdays in OCTOBER! HAHA.

and i love painting.
ALOT!.
see.
random.

who cares.

and i think lexine should go and count the number
of years of friendship PROPERLY,
before saying its 11.
DUMB SHIT.
HAHA.

12:41:00 pm

oh my gosh.
nearly.
HAHA.
remember the 6th.
its impt.
not cuz its the end of -- days.
i think you forgot la.
nevermind.
the most i'll do is kill you i guess.
love.

1:39:00 pm

amazing;
i love you plenty.
i think i told you alot today,
shall continue again soon.
hahaha.
sorry i was lazy,
to go to your school,
to have lunch with you.
(:
haha.
WHOOPS.
im dating you next week right.
pick the date.
(:
LOVE.

1:25:00 pm

12:26:00 pm

*tagged victims have to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers.
specify the gender of the target.
tag four victims to join in this game and leave a comment
on their page saying they've been tagged.
if tagged a second time, there's no need to post again.

tagger: lexine
next victims: larris, jos, shyla, peiwen

target gender: MALE

1) he has to know when im down or when im happy.
(basically know how im feeling)

2) he has to love me with all his heart. ((:

3) he must be ROMANTIC.

4) he needs to know what is right
and wrong to do at any given time.

5) he must be nice smelling! (:
(so his smell will stay on me when i hug him)

6) he must have a nice bolster that i can hug daily. (:

7) he must never lie to me,
and be honest with me all the time.

AND

8) he has to be there for me when i need him the most.

12:26:00 am

YOU*
you are horrible la!
im going to kill you.
but you know i cant bear to!
haha.
dont play that song ever again!
hmpf.

AMAZING;
i think you're ignoring me.
and i kinda know why.
i dont want to hurt you.
but its like,
how can i not?
you always feel a certain way.
and you're not honest with me.
you dont tell me how you feel.
and we're drifting apart.
and you're always so emo all the time
and not everyone knows why.
because you dont say anything.
then you just leave all your friends,
who care about you,
hanging in the air.
not knowing what you're thinking
about or how you're feeling.
you can choose what you want to do
with this friendship,
but i know i will always treasure
the special moments we have had
ever since i got to know you,
the good and the bad.
i miss "ben and jerry's" with you.
(:

1:02:00 pm

I WRITE SINS NOT TRAGEDIES

Oh, well imagine,
as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear,
no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:
"What a beautiful wedding! What a beautiful wedding!"
says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"And yes, but what a shame,
what a shame,
the poor groom's bride is a whore."

I'd chime in with a
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things
with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in,
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things
with a sense of...

Well in fact,
well I'll look at it this way,
I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast,
so pour the champagne
Oh! Well in fact,
well I'll look at it this way,
I mean technically our marriage is saved
Well this calls for a toast,
so pour the champagne,
pour the champagne

I'd chime in with a
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things
with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in,
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things
with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again...
I'd chime in,
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things
with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in,
"Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things
with a sense of poise and rationality.
Again...

12:17:00 pm

GOO GOO DOLLS.

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


i just totally love this song.
it says alot.
(:

today was spent at home,
and at causeway point.
with one of my sec sch bestie's.
it was, well,
funny
retarded
tiring
and
dumb.
haha.
we did nothing but laze around
and talk rubbish.
then eat and eat.
watch youtube.
watch trl.
yadayada.
then shop!
haha.
i have to go to suntec tomorrow.
then maybe i'll drop by my darling's house.
yupps.
(:

OUT

8:15:00 pm

YESTERDAY

i dont know why.
but maybe its not only to you.
i so cant hold grudges.
unless you're talking abt liwei.
that's a whole different story,
right SHEILA?
HAHA.
oh wells,
i think im just bad at being angry.
its kind of a waste of energy.
once i cry everything's forgetten.
then for you,
you just say a few words,
and i forgive you so easily.
isnt that supposed to be bad?
you better not take me for granted.
and you say i am.
whatthehell.
i dont know la.

TODAY

you sounded irritated just now.
but yeah.i cant do anything also what.
because what i say never goes.
haha.
its true la.
bleah.

i burnt my finger just now.
damn pain.
the rice was too hot?
what nonsense right?
then now im having difficulty typing.

we were having an english pronunciation lesson
in ah-ni-nai-nai's car.
she said those people who always do announcements
in church cant pronounce words properly,
and that they dont learn
from their mistakes.
wednesday as we-nes-day,
when its supposed to be wens-day.
then saturday pronounced as saaa-turrr-day,
when its supposed to be sare-tur-day.
then september as saaaap-tem-ber.
people are going to think im nuts.
hahahaha.
oh wells.
only jill and larris and lari and antaeus and ah-nia and ah-ni-nai-nai
will know what the heck im taking about.
(:

AMAZING;
i hope you're alright?
after what happened yesterday.
take care alright?
claire needs you the most right now i guess.
or maybe she needs shermann?
HAHHA.
love.
(:

7:50:00 pm

the fondue party was wow.
haha.
we lup all the pizza and sushi,
then went on to the thick chocolate.
haha.
WONDERFUL.
strawberries and grapes and marshmallows
and bananas and honeydew and peach
and mandarin orange!
SOMEONE had to keep on SAVING our fruits
from the flowing chocolate lake.
haha.
cuz they kept sliding off the stick all.
drama.


LAURIE LAURIE LAURIE!
i cant wait for the 11th of november now.
i thank GOD for showering me with such an understanding
and caring friend! (:
SHE ROCKS!
im going to miss lauriebelle trolley loads!
ILOVEYOULAURIE! ((:

2:35:00 pm

WERE YOU there when he.....

HAHAHHAHHA.
malay brain!
you crack me up please!
then getting jeremy all irritated.
cuz you just wouldnt ask the qn.
what a dumb thing you are.
im going to laugh everytime i see you now!
(:
we had loads of fun during dinner.
the servers are just one hell of a bunch of people to be with.
they can make you laugh at anything,
which other people might not think is funny.
its just the way they are.
and that's what makes them
such good listeners and friends.
most of them.
yupps.
and then there were these children,
in particular this small boy la.
the parents were there eating,
and the DUMB children were down there
at the coffeeshop pretending that the chilli sauce packets were guns.
oh please!
then ignatius was getting all uptight,
scaring the poor little children,
and attempting to shoot ice at them all.
but as you know,
his aiming sucks big time.
and so he ended up shooting a carlsberg bottle
and some other man all.
DUMB ASS.
altogether,
yesterday was officially LAUGHING DAY.
2nd SEPTEMBER 2006.
haha.
(:

well.
on another note.
my plan failed.
you know what im talking abt.
im sad.
haha.
cannot make it please.
DEAD.
i need to go write your thing now
before you kill me.

OUT.

2:58:00 pm

Let it roll of your back
And let it slip off your tongue
Before you lose your nerve
And end up right back where you started from.
Are you just waiting for the right time?
Are you holding off until you see a sign
To say something?
Or are you just bluffing?
I recognize the worry in your eyes,
Because I’ve been there a couple hundred times.
So take it from me,
speak up or you’ll wish you’d done differently.

Let it roll of your back
And let it slip off your tongue
Before you lose your nerve
And end up right back where you started from
Because when it’s over, then it’s done.
And, boy, to tell you the truth,
If you put your foot in your mouth,
You’d still be better off than kicking yourself.

It’s obvious that you’re conflicted.
To carry on or just to nix it?
Should you stay the course or just walk out that door?
If I were you, I would be on my way.
The rest of your life could start today.
If not now, then when?
If not now, when?

Let it roll of your back
And let it slip off your tongue
Before you lose your nerve
And end up right back where you started from
Because when it’s over, then it’s done.
And, boy, to tell you the truth,
If you put your foot in your mouth,
You’d still be better off than kicking yourself.

So tell me what you’ll say,
when you finally come face to face,
when there ain’t no turning back,
because this is your last chance.
Let’s hear it.

I’m through trying to hold onto this,
because you seem to be over it.
So kiss these almond eyes goodbye,
because this is the last time you’ll see them cry.

--goodbye almond eyes

isnt this song so ironic?
i dont know also.
nothing also cannot.
something also cannot.
what is going on anyway?
im feigning ignorance am i?
alrighty then.
so be it.
i also dont know what i should do.
i doubt she knows too.
HAHA.
right?
i cant help but laugh at this situation.
i think we're all assuming things
we arent supposed to.
then ladeedum,
things go wrong.
then ladeedum somemore,
and it becomes worse.
then silent treatment.
then the next day a sinple msg
and all is PRETENDED to be forgetten.
but bringing up the topic will just
make THINGS WORSE.
so we choose to shutthehellup.
then now its come to a stage where everyone
wants to voice their opinion.
then fight and quarrel again.
then msg and its alright again.
this is sure some SUPERLY WEIRD game
that we are playing here.
well,
i think playing along will just be the best idea.
any suggestions?
i welcome any.
if you even have some.
//bleah.
i want to runaway.
from it all.
its not a good idea to escape from my problems
but its the best idea i've got so far.
i guess.
i want to ignore you for 10 days.
i can if i want to.
i think i shall.
it'll be good.
i need time to relax
and BREATHE.
i havent been breathing enough lately.
10 days alright?
its because of me not you.
and no one else either.
not my amazing one too.
REALLY.
if you ignore her,
i'll ignore you longer.
you know i will.
it starts today,
or just until i have enough time to settle down properly.
and i hope you respect my decision.
you may not get to read this.
but my amazing one will update you.
be a dear and read it all out alright?
thanks dear.
(:

i miss LEXINE already.
i have loads to tell her.
(:
cant wait for the seventeen party.
right lex and nessa?

OUT.

11:03:00 pm